Might as Well Just Cause a Scene

“You can not change
the one who hurt you.
He did whatever he did.
It´s not your job to make
him a better person”
“Once it's revealed,
the truth is always revealed
Once it´s revealed, trust is broken
Because I don't know who you are”
“Ragnhild,  he´s gonna call you delusional anyways
You might as well just cause a scene”

You Promised
Did You?

Don’t you dare to call yourself a victim
Gave me an excuse wrapped in air
Your rejection was a fucking blessing
I dodged a damned bullet
when you left 
Now your narcissism is your problem 
You might think that you won
in the end 
Am I the one who learns
something of this?
I always told the truth, did not pretend

I know you’re crier
I know you’re an overthinker too
You won’t be able to
forget me that easy
There is nothing left
not a thing in this house
that reminds me of you 
There’s too many songs you loved
you can’t listen to them alone 
I know you’re crier
or was that a lie like the rest of us
you were making up stories so well
you believed in them too 
I know you’ve been hurt before
should have known
you don´t know better
I want you to know I don’t cry anymore.

“In this relationship we may
experience fear
and self-doubt
that we´ve never felt before”

“Mhm, som faen”

“The relationship comes with massive highs, and dramatic lows”

“Jada. jada!”

He’s waiting at the table as 
usually I’m late I’m 
Saying  «I’m Sorry» while 
I take off my jacket
This is how it started 
He was charming
I was caught in those eyes

He held my hand
He made me laugh
No intermission
Time could stop for hours when
He made me listen
This could be the story where
I fell in love 
I fell for the one

I almost had the chance
I called him mine for a second
Lying on his chest
I didn’t dare to remind him

when I received
love bombing cards on my door
Cause wanting him to need me too

is too much ask for
Okay, I´ll take a step back

I’ll have to wait

I know the rules now
What I'm not allowed to say or feel
When he stops
I want him more
Promised me the world
Then left on read for days
I need the love
(But I want him more than
he wants me)

The lust, I miss
The dopamine

The chemistry
He has to feel the same
(has to feel the same) 

How can he stay away 

It’s chemistry he cannot stay away

I wanted him to need me

I never thought I had to move again
Was it the only option?
Now I am going from place to place
sleeping on my friends couches

I always thought I liked to be alone
Trusted what I assumed 
Suddenly I found myself lost
Awake in a strangers bedroom

If I ever can describe
How I feel and how I’ve tried
Ten thousand times to stay here
Am I doomed?

Will I be restless, the rest of my life
Searching for some other?
If I am waiting in an endless line
Does it really matter? 

If I ever can describe
How I feel and how I’ve tried
Ten thousand times to stay
But I am doomed

Det blir bare flere. 
Enda en eks, 
enda en tilfeldig natt, 
enda en øl med en
du trodde var høyere. 
Det så i hvert fall slik ut på bildet. 

Vi som blir eldre, men fortsatt leter, 
skriver opp navn på hver vår individuelle liste,
over mennesker vi helst ikke vil møte igjen. 
Vi gjør det i et så raskt tempo at vi ikke rekker å rydde opp,
avklare,
lære, 
reflektere, 
før man igjen må føre opp et nytt navn. 
Nå funderer jeg på om listene gjør det vanskeligere
å bli hos et menneske. 
Verden er så liten, at man nærmest hver dag står i fare for
å kunne bli påminnet valg man har tatt,
øyne man falt for,
eller armer man har sovet i. 

Og i tillegg til min egen liste, 
kunne jeg strengt tatt ikke ha
forventet innsyn i din.

Even though you said
you’re sorry, can’t help it 
I think I’m lost in the past
I cannot afford to lose it again
Maybe I said that I
wanted to know you better,
then this is the last time
I’m being honest with you again

How many songs have been
written about you
guess there’s a hundred
at least I’m being creative
letting you know
I’m pretty sure this isn’t normal
a reckless way of behaving
I see why I
I can’t have you
I’m letting you go

So I 
can write about why
I'm not gonna cry myself to sleep 
but remind myself I’m better than you

It was only a matter of time
not a surprise that you’re gone 
Suddenly silent
honey don’t go quiet on me
you told me too much
anyway now that I know
why I can’t have you
I’m letting you go

So I 
can write about why
I'm not gonna cry myself to sleep 
but remind myseIf I’m better than you

Better than you

Now I
can write about why
I'm not gonna cry myself to sleep 
but remind myself
I’m better than you

“Hvor er Ragnhild hen da?”
“Nei, halla!”
Hva skal du gjøre?
“Hei, har du sovet godt?”

Planned a future in my head
With someone like you 
Everything that I wanted
thought you had it too
Did I fall in love 
with what could have been?
No surprise I’m a dreamer 
a tiring one

I could vision my future 
Spent hours a day 
Daydreaming in classrooms 
A new day, a new name
I was not afraid
for love back then
Now i am afraid 
loving someone at all

He wasn’t perfect
but what he was introducing me for 
Gave me the fuel that I needed to 
make a character on my own

Am I ruining my future? 
You’re still here in my head 
Tried to drink you away 
Tried drink to forget 
You have build
a bailey around my heart

They threw me out of a party again
I couldn’t walk straight 
How sad my mom would be 
if she knew how I’m living my life 

I am ruining my future
It’ isn’t your fault
Needed someone to blame 
You’re not here anymore
(nights) the nights won’t last 
I need to wake up
The light I chase
I need to grow up
I cannot blame
you anymore, but
you’ve build
a bayley around my heart

The back of your head
Only an arms length away from me
The bar we had chosen
Should have been closed then
You would have followed me home

But I don’t avoid my emotions
just like you do, that's how I'll get through this 
I’m just sad, but I know that if I rest my head the heartache goes away
What do you see, look in the mirror
when you get older, you cannot avoid it  If your daughter cries,
can’t get out of her bed
I hope you´re gonna change

If you were a fighter 
If this was a one-off drunken mistake 
If you wanted to you would 
Wouldn't disappear 
Wouldn't lose your head
But you are a quitter
your easiest way out
She is the one you still adore
I am the one you threw away
but you can´t ignore

But I don’t avoid my emotions
(what you did)
just like like you did
now I have to go through this 
Yeah, I´m sad, but I know that if I rest my head the heartache goes away
What do you see, look in the mirror
when you get older, you cannot avoid it  
If your daughter cries
can’t get out of her bed
I hope you´re gonna change

Det er sjukt fordi,
en ting er at jeg forstår det.
Hvis du gjør det ryddig, da går du til Ragnhild også sier du sånn;
“Nå møtte jeg henne, jeg må bare ta det nå,
fordi at vi har ikke hatt sjans til å møttes før” 
eller, et eller annet.

Look in the mirror
you cannot avoid it
Look in the mirror

Men han bare, han så ikke. 
Det var helt vilt
Jeg har aldri opplevd lignende. 

But I don’t avoid my emotions      
just like you did
I´m gonna get through this
Yeah, I´m sad, but I know that
if I rest my head the
heartache goes away
What do you see?
Look in the mirror,
are you avoiding glimmer of failure
or regret for the way
you were letting me go?
I bought you a beer
had to drink it alone
Out loud, say that you miss her
You could have said that
when I was asking
But you lied or you tried
to ignore what you felt
your eyes couldn't hide
that you wanted to say it out loud
say that you miss her
You could have said that
when I was asking
But you lied or you tried
to ignore what you felt
you eyes couldn't hide
that you needed her more than me

If you would have turned around
Come back to our table
I counted hours
made up excuses to wait
I'm gonna stay in bed f
or the rest of the day

You can’t listen to Clairo
without thinking of me 
I think I made it clear
Slings my favorite record

Are you listening to Clairo
or to Caroline Rose
without getting emotional?
Then let me know how you do it

Why do I admire 
the one I can’t forget
I cannot decide if that’s a problem
when the problem is that no matter 
what I’m doing there’s a heavy cloud above me
that forces me to remember your name

You found “To Renovate a House” 
before you found me
and when you had me
you said you liked how it sounded

Are you still listening to it?
If you do, that's absurd
If you recommend it to her
you’re kind enough to tell her about me

Do you need a reminder
of what you’ve could've had
Subconsciously hiding
can you recognize the problem?
It doesn't matter
Oh, how I hope that
there’s a heavy cloud above you
that forces you to remember my name

Why do I admire 
the one I can’t forget
I cannot decide if that’s a problem
when the problem is that no matter 
what I’m doing there’s a heavy cloud above me
that forces me to remember your name

While watching a movie 
or hearing sad songs
If someone are mentioning 
or if they put on a
record you showed me
Heavy cloud above me
that forces me to remember your name 

While watching a movie 
or hearing sad songs
If someone are mentioning 
or if they put on a
record you showed me
Heavy cloud above me
that forces me to remember your name

Pretty sure you know exactly what you’ve been putting me through
Even though I said “its fine, I didn’t really need you”
You’ve could have said it from the start “I´m not ready, wasn’t ready”
Instead you said you were in love
You were in love with me too

What was the reason?
Thought you could stay at last?
It’s an obsession, no
Habits don’t change like that 

Pretty sure I saw your wrecked face outside a store last night  
You wore a hat you´ve crocheted
the one I said I really liked  
Made me think that there might be another outcome of this story
That you’re not back with her again
but you went back to being
Sad

What were you thinking?
That I could take you back?
I was obsessed with you
But I can't change my mind
Didn't deserve it
Didn't deserve your acts  
It’s an obsession to
Leave them as fast as you can

What was the reason?
Thought you could stay at last?
It’s an obsession, no
Habits don’t change like that 

What were you thinking?
That I could save your ass
That you could change for me  
Habits don’t change like that

And it’s a reason for the fact
that I don’t care anymore
This is the meanest thing I've written that I’m sharing with the world
But the meanest thing that someone’s ever done to me is what you did to me
You cannot say that you are in love if you don’t know the meaning of those words

Fyfaen, jeg er spent
Så du det?
“I have seen it”
Åhåhåh
Okei, du må sitte i midten da, Synnøve
“Hæ, når var det her?”

“Jeg har overlatt kamerat til noen andre”
Jeg tror det er jeg som tar det bildet?

“Å, søøøt.”
“Ragnhild-jenta vår”
Nå skjer det snart!
“Ja, for det her er jo, det her er jo den kvelden”

:O

This is what you get
when you hurt
someone who's writing
for a living
Or are you gonna brag about it?
Me, me, me, me
The delusional imposter that you ran away from
What's your plan now?
Pay attention to your patterns
and I´m gonna change mine 
I am done with morons 
Skaterboys who skate away
from problems they create
on their own
So many hours of my life that I've chosen to waste
I´ve wasted feelings
A wasted year, wasted tears
on you dear, are you gonna call me
a pity little liar?
Yea, I´ve might been quiet
I can´t hide my anger no more
this became a quarrel
when you ripped my heart out

You can call me pity
You can call me bitter 
better hurry up and fix it
Rearrange the stories
I will tell about you
What I tell about you

This is what you get
when you write for a living
What I was given
and I made art
Gifted with the power
to put it into words
I can describe how I feel
Now I'm the one laughs about this
Ha ha ha
if this was not a quarrel
but this was way too far off
A consequence of getting close to me:

“If that relationship don't work, you gonna be an album”

You can call me pity
You can call me bitter 
better hurry up and fix it
Rearrange the stories
I will tell about you
What I tell about you

You can call me pity
You can call me bitter
better be prepared to listen
I just wrote a record about
someone like you
That I barely knew