02 To Renovate a House
Had to remind you to buy a frame before next friday, how could you forget? Have to decide if we want some flowers here before we invite over friends. Let's tell them again about how we bought the house, now we´re renovating on our own. Trying to furnish the rooms a lot of different choices and I want the bed to stay here instead of what you suggest “the night should be quiet and dark”. While I need the light to wake me up. Trying to ignore, boxes in the hall. Have to decide if we want some flowers here before we invite over friends. Redecorating, you painted circles on the wall as a child, and said “what's wrong?”. Well, you are miles away from my vision. I can't see us figuring out what we want. Trying to ignore flowers in the hall. Have to decide if we’re getting flowers. Over and over, why am I yelling?

03 I Have You
Jerry has smokey blue eyes, a flawless purple shirt. Known for his books about art with 1800 words. And nobody is talking, they are quiet when he speaks. Jerry is loved and adored, has everything I need. When he walked into the room, with courage, calmed and cool. He blew my mind, was so much taller in real life. Blew my mind. Couldn't believe he was here, had worshiped him for years. Eventually he looked at me, even called me “dear”. even called me “dear” eventually he looked at me. Made me come a little closer, he smelled cigarettes and perfume, but Jerry is alone, he has no one back home. In his empty, lonely eyes I realized that in this confusing world that we are living in, I have you. How can I say “I am sorry” without hearing “that's what I told you, anyway come back to bed before I go to sleep”. I said “I know now what I need and I need you”

06 Blue
Patiently you wait for me to come home. Time and time again, I need to be alone while I wonder how many times I´ve left. I know you had expectations. Thought I was like I was when we were friends, but then you got too close and sadly, most of my days are blue. Quietly you sleep weary of my ways. I’ve been gone for days. I am 28, still I dont know whats wrong with me. If there was a reason I could hide behind. An explanation why I make you cry to justify? Constantly confused, It's always the same. My past is my excuse for making mistakes empty promises won't make you stay. I know you had expectations. Thought I could be someone to grow old with in a house by the sea, but sadly, most of my days are blue. So I’ve made it easy for you to say goodbye. I told you I won’t hold you (back) or blame you for leaving me. I need time to find out why I can´t let go unfortunately fires, fires, are dancing in my head.

07 The Past
Time to stay away from her. Now I know why she made me feel self-conscious and lost. As a costume, I wore her pain. All the hours I've spent with her. Chasing, fighting about the view, I couldn't see the consequences, as she got too close. All the hours I've spent with her payed attention to every word. With her weighty arms around me, wouldn’t let me go. Time to stay away. Now I know why she made me feel self-conscious. I lost myself, so stay away. All the hours I've spent with you. Chasing, fighting about the view. Lost in circles How did you got me going around. Time to stay away from her. Now I know

04 Climate Change
Changes make me think of her. You talk about saving the world. What she taught you, you teach me. My father wakes up at 6 am, his whole life is about to change. What he taught me, is what I know. Changes that I realize, are closer now then what I thought, but she knew (and) she let us know. He believes in mysteries, in God himself and powerful scientists. He repeat their words. I am in the middle, on my own while I try to forget the photos of her smile. Changing the world with a dewy skin. Can I make you understand why my hands are colder now? Dancing in the summer air, with my sins, without a care. Who am I? What have I done? You could save me if I wanted to be saved from all my demons, sadly they are all I know. So my fear is that you´re leaving me, for water, clouds and silent trees, the green fighter light you´ve seen in her eyes. I am in the middle on my own, while I try to forget the photos of her smile. Changing the world with a dewy skin. Can I make you understand why my hands are colder now?

08 Blurry Nights
Terribly buzzed, chasing the lights, wanna do anything. Want them to stay, their red-colored eyes, when the morning comes. I am awake, barely alive. Waiting for the bottles to make me feel sorry again. When I´m going back home. Talking too much, making a scene, wanna be everything. Need them to see, what I can be, while I'm saying to myself:  “This is the one, this is the last”. Never ending promises, because I am changing my mind. Now I wanna know why. Blurry nights, stolen time, glorified memories, borrowed gold. Glorified stories I've told - no. Blurry nights, wasted time, magnified memories, life on hold. What a lie, how could I know, know. Fading away, chasing the lights, I can’t feel anything. Finally lost, waiting for more, I am all alone. It's what I need, that’s what I think, you won't remember me if I don’t end up on your couch. Now I wanna know why. Blurry nights, wasted time. Glorified memories, life on hold. Glorified memories, blurry nights.